Since I was a small small child I have suffered breathing difficulties. I have a scarred left lung made worse by the radiation of a cancer treatment ( but in life there are often tradeoffs – we have choices but they are not always GOOD/BAD axis choices, sometimes they are BAD/WORSE or BETTER/BEST) This choice I made was a BAD/WORSE choice and as always I deal with what lies before me and just get on with it.
Are you aware of your breathing? I know I am, because there are days I cannot lie down as I feel I am drowning in fluid and cannot get enough air into my lungs. There comes a time each morning where I just cannot lie down anymore. So I get up. I do not say Why Me? I think Why NOT me? It is better me than someone else. And I can see improvements. I am not dosing myself with steroids as a short term symptom fix every day. The doctors would have me do this but that does not solve the problem – rather it suppresses the symptoms for a while when coupled with puffers and antibiotics and they come screaming right back when the medication is at an end. I do not want this tyranny of chemicals when I have avoided chemicals and other toxic substances for the larger part of my life ( even when it was fashionable!!).
This is a bit of a rant so bear with me.
Mum’s closeness to leaving this life over many month in 2008 brought home jarringly how much we take for granted of the simple things; the breath that courses in and out, the way we eat and what our body does with this, the elimination of wastes an what happens when the body doesn;t do what it was designed to do.
We do not think about what we do – what our body does unconsciously unless we stop and focus on these simple wondrous functions.
What is the Breath of Life? here I am not talking about the intake and exhalation of air, but I am talking about that something that ignites our being, that invisible spark that mobilises our conscious and soul and each and every cell.
” Breathe. Let go. remind yourself that this very moment is the onlyone you know you have for sure.” Oprah Winfrey.