I find myself at a crossroads and after many years of struggle both within and without myself, I see there is no alternative BUT to let go. In fact, the person I have been struggling and fighting to keep has already gone in mind and heart. Why is it so hard for me to let go? It may not be this way for everyone else but for me it is agonising.
Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure.
— Oprah Winfrey
So in the short term this must be my strategy. I must live within now intensively focused and that way each minute is an entire lifetime in itself. I must celebrate the small things I force myself to do to keep moving at a time I want to curl in a teeny tiny little ball and pull the earth over me so everything goes away – including me. Unfortunately I cannot afford that luxury, so I get in touch wih the steel in my backbone and impel myself forward into every single minute.
By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond the winning.
— Lao Tzu
My emotions are everywhere and back again. My mind takes me on journeys into areas I do not want to go. But I will do this.
The rocks are harp and my heart is torn and bleeding but it is cleaning out anything toxic.
For now it is enough to go on breathing.